Friday, October 7, 2016


Hi, long time no see. It's been 3 wonder years since I last updated this blog. So here I am, trying to start something I that used to love to do, while I have nothing to do now. Dulu kononnya nak update selalu supaya boleh tengok balik life mcm mana dulu haha tp pemalas ya ampun.

Dear blog, I've finally finished my degree years in engineering, something I'd never have thought I'd get myself into but I still did survive it hehe. So here comes the mereput day lol, job hunting, soul searching etc etc. Still tryna figure out what's best for me, masters or work. But let's not talk about it now haha. So one day, i decided that i wanna look back to my old days. And Ive found like lots and lots of my old photos luckily i still have them in my hard disk. They're basically photos of me during my teenage years (god tua nya rasa), drpd zaman skolah menengah and a bit of zaman sekolah rendah. And mostly during my uni years. Palam and Utm. Gosh I was such a camwhore freak back then (right now it is known as selfie lol).

And I've noticed that my skin color was sooooo different at that time. I was so dark like really really dark, I still remember that some of my friends would call me hitam legam (you know who you are) hahaha crush pun kurang ajar ejek sekali patutlah takde orang suka pun dulu TT. And as I get older, my skin color tend to get a little brighter. Takdela nak cakap skrg dah putih melepak gebu quputeh but dah okay la kot. Honestly, I was so so insecure with my skin sebab asik kena ejek so level of confidence pun jatuh merundum, and nobody would notice me (no one had a crush on me lololol, adela sorang ni tapi tktaulah*coughcough*), mcm in a group of people, i was that blacksheep (rasa mcm tersisih pun ada jgk from cikgu/certain people ye lah kita kan tak cantik, tak pandai pulak tu) but alhamdulillah I was blessed with no jerawat. Kalau ada pun, sikit sikit gitu. Dulu siap pernah doa lagi dkt Allah mintak putihkan kulit mcm masa kecik2 dulu hahaha noobnya because I was born with fair skin, and i desperately wanted them back haha. And also my skin is so sensitive towards sunlight that i could get burnt very easy. One time when I was 5 or 6 y/o,  I went to the beach and the whole day I spent my time there so mmg terbakar habis muka entahla so since that my skin was dark sampailah zaman sekolah and dah besar. But i think, normal la kan zaman skolah mmg la hitam sebab selalu keluar panas panas semua tu. And then masuk plkn pulak mmg hitam la cerita dia setahun nak hilang belang kat muka tu. My mama would say, nanti dah besar nanti okay la kulit and I didn't wanna believe sebab mcm lama gilaaa Lagipun tgk ramai jugak orang yg ada kesah sebegini haha and plus pakai pencuci muka apa pun tak jadi. But lama lama, mmg akan ok kulit tktau mcm mana it just worked. And, I do not take any supplements mind you. Time just heal you know haha kena bersabar je hehe. Kena rajin minum air masak. It's true what people always say, air masak is the best. Siap boleh increase metabolism so bolehlah kurus sekali haha. And also I've learnt that putting yogurt on your face as mask could heal your sunburn. Hm oklah tu je lah bye. Hahahaa. Whatever it is, having a fair skin is not everything. As long as there's somebody out there who is willing to accept you just the way you are then it's more than enough. Thank you to everyone who sticks by me