Monday, August 31, 2009

Merdeka

Wow merdeka! I didn't even realize that it's already 12.21 am. So happy 52nd birthday Malaysia! Man, school's gonna start and I don't like. But I guess 1 week of holiday is enough. I'm done wasting my time doing nothing (ceh). And damn, school ends at the same time (for now). Not fair because other schools get to go home early. So I need one beautiful sleep every afternoon :) Pleease? (mimpi lah)


Patriotic!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

How will I know?

How can you sleep? How can you breathe?
Baby tell me how, how you love me now. - Hey monday


I woke up this morning and I felt empty. Come back.
People won't understand.


I like the cover. Unique.
The Energy Never Dies

Wonder if,

Lets take a break , shall we?




[Shane:]
Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

[Mark:]
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

[All (Shane lead):]
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? ([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go?

[Bryan:]
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

[Shane:]
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go ?

[Shane:]
If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

[Bryan:]
Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
([Mark:] close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
([Bryan:] if I let you go?)
But if I let you go I will never know
([Mark:] oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go ?


p.s - aww isn't this the sweetest song ever?

When I looked into your eyes

the moment that I let you go, I just broke down - Natalie.

Moving my hips like yeaaah

I miss you bloggie! So I'm gonna write you something. But I don't know what. Okay tooodies! Miss me! Come onnn, its 2.14 am already and I'm not sleepy. Help meeh!

p.s - Happy 17th birthday to my dearest cousin azrina! (:

Apologize

I wanna say sorry if you guys bosan baca cerita yang panjang gila babi ni. But just read it, best kot , perasan alert(!). Haha that's what I think, and fyi this is the longest story I have ever created. Haha.

p.s - if the story was written on a piece of paper, how many piece of paper would it need eh?

Friday, August 28, 2009

Dia masih ingat (part 2)

Dia masih ingat lagi kata kawan kawannya. Semuanya masih segar di kepala otak nya. 'Sedih lah, nk pindah' 'Rindu lah' bla bla bla bullshit Ahmad rasa. Benar kata Dr.M Melayu mudah lupa. Ya, manusia memang senang kan berkata kata. Mungkin orang yang berkata itu tidak perasan. Manusia memang tidak akan perasan perubahan dalam dirinya. Hanya orang sekeliling sahaja yang sedar. Hanya orang yang menyayanginya akan sedar. Sekarang ni, semua kawan Ahmad dah ada life baru, sekolah baru, kawan baru dan yang paling penting geng baru. Geng baru mereka semua hebat hebat. Ahmad sedar, siapa lah dirinya kecuali orang miskin yang tak mampu beli apa apa. Tak apa, walau pun Ahmad kat sekolah lama, dia pun ada kawan baru. Dia tetap bersemangat untuk meneruskan hidupnya walaupun separuh daripada jiwanya telah hilang.

Dia masih ingat lagi kenangan bersama besfriends dia. Susah senang together, kena marah together, buat jahat together semuanya together lah. Tapi sekarang ni, semuanya mcm tinggal habuk je. Di tiup dan hilang begitu sahaja. Sebab itu lah Ahmad tak suka kenangan manis. Bila di kenang, sedih pula jadinya. Bagi Ahmad, lebih baik takde kenangan daripada kita asyik sedih je. Hubungan yang dijalinkan sejak sekolah rendah rupa rupanya bukan lah sampai apa yang kita harapkan. Bestfriends forever? Friendship remains and never ends? Fikir dua kali.

Sekarang ni, semua sibuk dgn life masing masing. Tidak ada masa langsung nak berhubung sesama lain. Nak mengejar cita cita kan. Tidak ada masa langsung untuk hang out. Busy dgn schedule mereka yang baru. Memang tidak ada masa langsung untuk each other. Susah kan hidup? Makin banyak chapter yang perlu kita isi. Ada aku buat salah ke? Ahmad berfikir. Kalau ada, aku nak mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki. Minta maaf sbb kawan dgn org yang tak cool sepertinya yang bajunya sentiasa compang camping (lol tkde kena mengena).

Satu hari ni, Ahmad bermimpi. Dalam mimpi tersebut, Ahmad disahkan menghidapi penyakit yang begitu famous sekarang, Influenza A H1N1. Semua orang pandang ringan sahaja akan penyakit itu, tp mereka tidak sedar betapa senangnya ia boleh mencabut nyawa orang yang disayangi. Dalam mimpi tu, Ahmad dipaksa makan ubat dengan cara yang menyeksakan tp nurse dia hot. Haha. Lebih teruk lagi, tsunami. Sejak kebelakangan ini, Ahmad sentiasa dapat mimpi tsunami. Dia sekarang hanya mampu berdoa dan taubat. Mungkin ada petanda.

Dia masih ingat ketika bulan ramadhan. Ahmad selalu buka puasa dgn kawan. Malam tu pergi terawih, buat 8 rakaat je sbb tak sabar sgt nak main mercun. Tapi sekarang, semuanya berbeza. Dah tak sama mcm dulu. Ahmad pernah luka kat tangan sbb main mercun bola. Sampai masuk paper lagi (tipu). Tapi tahun ni, dah tak ada dah semua tu.

Pada pagi raya yang penuh mulia tu, Ahmad berasa sukar nk bernafas. Mungkin sudah sampai masanya untuk pergi. Dia capai sekeping kertas dan sebatang pen dan menulis, (part ni mcm poyo tah pape merapu sikit tak pernah ada org buat mcm ni)

'Mak ayah, Ahmad nk mintak maaf. Ahmad selama ni dah jadi anak yang jahat. Terima kasih sbb didik Ahmad sampai Ahmad boleh berjalan, bercakap, baca. Jasa mak ayah tak dapat nak dibalas dgn apa apa. Nanti bgtau kawan kawan Ahmad, Ahmad sayang diorang, Ahmad tk pernah lupa kan diorg. Kawan sampai mati eh.'

Seperti raya yang biasa, mak Ahmad akan datang kejutkan Ahmad nk pergi solat aidilfitri dgn suara yang lembut. Berkali kali maknya kejut tp tak bangun. Mak dia pun dah cuak. Matanya banjir dgn air mata. Jantungnya berdegup dgn laju. Rupa rupanya Ahmad telah pun pergi meninggalkan Mak, Ayah, Danial, Alisya, Adriyana, Aryana, Akmal, Danial, Alif dan rakannya yang lain buat selama lamanya. Raya tahun ni disambut dengan penuh kesedihan. Selama ini, Ahmad tak pernah tunjuk pun dia sakit apa, apatah lagi mengadu. Mungkin dia taknak susah kan mak dia kot. Kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang. Mak dia penat keluar cari rezeki jual nasi lemak kat bazaar ramadhan. Laku siot.

Apa jadi dengan Danial? Dan kawan kawannya yang lain? You decide.

THE END

p.s - Ending dia mcm taik sikit.
p.p.s - Kan best periksa boleh tulis mcm ni?

Dia masih ingat (Part 1)

Practise karangan (TANPA MENGIKUT TATABAHASA).

Pada suatu hari (ceh), Ahmad sedang baring atas katilnya yang begitu empuk sambil memikirkan kehidupan yang sedang dilaluinya sekarang. Dia sangat rindu kawan-kawan dia. Dia masih ingat lagi masa kecil-kecil dahulu, dia dan kawan kawan selalu pergi ke padang main together. Main gelongsor lah, main see saw lah dan yang paling menarik, buaian! Paling best, Ahmad berlumba lumba dgn best friend nya, siapa yang dapat buai paling laju dia menang yang loser kena belanja ice cream! Pernah sekali tu, Ahmad buai laju gila nak mati sampai tercampak terbang ke udara. Bagi dia, pengalaman itu sangat menarik dapat terbang selama 5 saat, korang boleh buat ke? Ahmad tersenyum. Ketika itu Ahmad baru berumur 6 tahun.

Sekarang, 10 tahun pun sudah berlalu. Terasa begitu sekejap masa berjalan. PMR pun dah lepas with flying colors. Ahmad dapat 8A! Dia berasa gembira. Ayahnya berjanji untuk menghadiahkannya Xbox dan PS3 dan Nintendo Wii. Maklumlah, game freak. Bestfriends Ahmad pun begitu, flying colors jugak. Alisya, Adrianna, Aryana (sorry Alya razif aku amik nama future anak kau, takde idea kot), Akmal, Alif, Danial. Semuanya berbf gf, tapi Ahmad sorang je takde. Ahmad kata nanti bila besar nnti baru dia ada awek cun melecun. Haha. Bukannya apa, memang ada yang nak kat dia, tapi Ahmad sgt poyo. High standard la kan. Okay apa apa lah. Belajar dulu katanya.

Dia masih ingat, waktu tingkatan 4 dulu. Masing masing sibuk nak pindah sekolah, dapat tawaran ke mrsm lah sbp lah teknik lah swasta lah. Ahmad tak mohon pun sebab Ahmad nak berbakti kat sekolah. Sekolah itu lah di mana Ahmad dapat 8A walaupun dia suka main main. Cikgu semua suka dekat dia. Teacher's pet, ya itu lah gelaran Ahmad. Makin lama makin sikit kawannya yang tinggal. Cuma tinggal Danial je. Danial tu Ahmad dah kenal sejak diorg lahir lagi. Duduk bersebelahan. Danial lah besfriend dunia akhirat. Tiba tiba suatu hari, Danial kena pindah rumah ke luar negara sbb dia kena ikut ayah dia kerja. So satu family pun kena pergi jugak lah. Tinggal Ahmad sorg sorg. Tp tkpe, dia masih ada lagi kan kawan kawan dia kat sekolah. Semua nya saling bantu. LOL. Waktu tu, Ahmad rasa sangat alone. Dia ada kawan, tp semuanya berbeza. Tak sama dgn bestfriendnya.

Dia masih ingat, waktu tu Ahmad tengah berjalan jalan dkt padang. Lepastu dia ternampak sorang ni, orang tu mmg dia kenal, dari segi rupa, cara berjalan, semuanya lah. Rupa rupanya Danial! Oh my god Ahmad gila terkejut campur happy kalau boleh dia nk jerit. Tp Danial tak perasan Ahmad. Agak sedih lah, niat di hati memang nk tegur, tp dia malu, takut tersalah orang. So dia pun pandang je lah Danial. And then Danial pn mcm pndg Ahmad. Danial cm WHAT? Ahmad! Muka dia pun nmpk happy. Dia pun datang lah salam dgn Ahmad. Tanya khabar. Kemudian, dia pergi begitu sahaja. Takde hot news langsung. Ahmad pun taktau nak kata apa. Tp bila chatting (cc kat sekolah free kot), Danial lain, bila jumpa, lagi lah lain. Balik Malaysia pun tk bgtau. Kecewa. Suspicious. Mungkin Danial sgt gembira kut dgn life baru dia, barat la kan. Hollywood sume tu. Haha tah pape.

p.s - to be continued.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Changing

So you see, I have changed my background again. This situation is not going to stop until I'm satisfied with the background. From this -



To - now.

Just wait for a couple more days, then I'll change it again (and again).(Kalau rajin)

p.s - 14 mins untill bukak puasa and I'm still here.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Watermelon

Hello back, with new colors.

Sengaja memburukkan blog.
Mcm watermelon kan?
Yuuum. (puasaaa)

3.00 pm and tak mandi lagi :)

Lama gila tak update kann?
M.A.L.A.S

Me and Alya's favorite song :) ,

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
So please don't catch me
And If this is love,
please don't break with me
I'm giving up, so just catch me
--Catch me, Demi Lovato.


p.s - Happy fasting everyone!
p.p.s - Gila colorful. Bosan kot.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Fatty Day

Oh my god. I think I'm gonna get fat.

Today, I had a burger during recess (Tak sedap pon nak buat mcm mana benda lain pun tak sedap so just beli burger). And I had another burger too for lunch but this time, I shared with my mom. Originally, my mother wanted to buy some lauk at mana ntah kedai, then the kedai was tutup for friday prayers so instead they (including my sis) bought McD. And for dinner, I'll be having another burger because my bro wants to buy it and I can't say no to that (it's the best burger in town!). Ha.ha. But anyway, I'm not a big fan of burgers. Burger is definitely not healthy. Ya laah not to mention that next week is trial's week. Totally efficient for my brain. (Not). -__- Oh the burger is here! Got to go now.

ttfn :)

p.s - Oh burger, please don't make me fat. Or I'll hate you. No, you're so tempting, how can I hate you?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

A little change

I'm thinking about changing my not-so-private-blog to a-completely-private-blog.
Sooooooooooo you can give me your email if you wanna read my boring blog.
Don't ask why. I hate getting stupid stuffs on my comment box.
But I haven't really decided yet. So we'll seee.
Just gimme your email okay. Okay toodles.

p.s - Sometimes, your actions, your personality and what you do, actually reveal who you really are. Don't you think so?

The end.

So long farewell

Bye bye,
I'll see you next week after the stupid trial. (Chyeaaah)
I need to memorize soo many things right now.
Soooo nothing to stalk at the moment. Booo!

Oh by the way, just now at school I had a study group! Woohoo for bahasa Arab baby. Never thought it would actually happen. Haha. Since I'm a total loser in arab, I asked for Adibah's help and then pooof, almost 5 people joined the group. Adibah and Aisyah are now my new-part-time-teacher! Lol. Hey what friends are for when we need them? Yeah friends help and support each other. Friends don't backstab and talk behind each other (unless your friend is such an asshole to you, then it's okay (: LOL) and create false rumors and tell lies too because real friends don't do any of those. We need to trust them and don't/never let them down because it will only hurt their feelings. And most crucially, be honest because, 'Honesty is the best policy'. (Wow essay A+++ siap bagi idiom lagi.) Why the hell am I talking about this? It's like I'm a good angel that has never done anything baaad. (So wrrooong). I do make mistakes okay, a lot(!)

So tomorrow we're gonna start a new chapter. Yeay us!

p.s - I hate to go online these days.
p.p.s - I'm a study-at-the-eleventh-hour type of girl :D It helps me alot, really.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Language

Yeay tak datang sekolah.

Speaking of language, the Malaysia's Government is going to change everything back into Bahasa. WHAT? I have no idea and I don't even want to know why (because I hate politics though this is not like politics stuff)(Yeah I know this is kind of basi already) but what I know is that I'm proud to be the one of the Guinea Pigs because I don't have to struggle to learn back in BM, but pity for those who learn in english and have to change it back. But don't you think that it's kind of stupid to change it? Kata nak Malaysia maju, but how is that possible when the government is like -- *fill in the blank and finish the sentence*. We have to learn in English! Because when you further your studies (I'm talking about overseas), I'm absolutely sure that not more than 5% can speak in malay unless you go to Indonesia then it's okay. (Oh look who's talking). Okay whatever, I'm done. This is a sensitive topic and I don't want my blog to be an issue sampai masuk berita semua LOL. They must have 1 good reason why they are doing this. But I just don't get it.

And we are only allowed to take SPM up to 10 subjects only. WHAT? So after this there will be no more 20A1? Not even 30A1? Damn, I was thinking about being the first student to score 30A's. LOL. Nanti cikgu baru nak bangga. -.-'


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Hmm macam mana nak buat Bahasa Melayu bombastic ? Macam mana nak buat karangan sampai 3-5 muka surat dengan beberapa ribu patah perkataan? Saya ketandusan idea yang menark. Otak saya memang tak kreatif untuk membina imaginasi yang sangat merapu tetapi masuk akal. Kena banyak tonton televisyen mungkin. Hm tatabahasa juga tunggang terbalik. Apa yang sudah dipelajari ketika di sekolah rendah lagi sudah pun terlupa/dilupakan. Masuk sekolah menengah sahaja, cikgu memang tak ajar sangat tatabahasa (mengikut pengalaman daripada tingkatan 1 - 4).

p.s - Skema gila. I really hate proper bahasa melayu because we only use proper BM during exams and in a ceremony, don't we? But in our daily life we use Bahasa Rojak. Eeeek. I hate rojak.

TTFN (:

Friday, August 7, 2009

Prince Trever (kot)

Rasa mcm jantung ditumbuk bertalu-talu dengan lesung batu sampai tinggal habuk mcm oreo cheese cake alya razif. Boleh bayangkan? HEART ATTACK! Okay takde pape. Oreo sedap. Tu je.

Hm, hari Rabu lepas, kami budak kelas biol telah pun bedah katak. And to my surprise, aku tak takut langsung nk tengok katak tu. Cuma gerun sikit bila nak cucuk tangan dan kaki dia dengan jarum (kesian kot) tapi semuanya kelihatan okay selepas itu. Bahagian yang paling menarik ialah bila dapat melihat jantungnya berdegup-degup.

Oh katak kumpulan budak lelaki mcm hisap rokok sebab jantung dia hitam. Ish ish. Tak reti pilih katak haha. Kami, Maznie yang ambilkan. And Hilmi kata froggy dia ada testis -__- Mana ada!

Tetapi malangnya, satu gambar tidak dapat diambil melainkan kamera teacher. Aiyo. Haha salahkan Effa Madiha! Dia kata nak bawak kamera kot.

Jadi, aku rasa aku sudah ada cita-cita yang tak beberapa tetap, iaitu Pakar Bedah yang terkenal. LOL. Jom Camyla kita jadi rakan kongsi bersama-sama.

By the way, tadi kat sekolah, saya ternampak seorang budak. Dan budak itu tidak dikenali oleh saya. Tapi gaya budak itu mcm sudah 10 tahun kenal. Mcm mana itu?




Tuition saya boleh dikatakan agak bosan lah oleh itu saya suka meluangkan masa melakukan benda tak sepatutnya. Itu tulisan tangan kiri saya (I'm a righty). Haha, sekarang ni saya sangat addicted tulis pakai tangan kiri. Best! Ia boleh buat otak kiri atau kanan berfungsi.


p.s - WOW sekolah dah hapuskan comment box! Fuyoo. Lawak kot.

TTFN :)

Purest of Pain

You couldn't imagine how it felt.
You have no idea what it was like to suffer the pain.
And so I skipped a class today :) Ish tak sengaja lah.

I just saw what zaem wrote on his myspace status.
-Tension? Senyum je :D
Aiyoo.

Now I'm crying. (tak tahu malu)
Trial - next week.

H1N1 is getting serious. And so as the haze. So wear your mask. Like a freak friend of mine always wears his. He could be a great role model. (Lol)

p.s - Ada apa nk stalk aku Sara? haha

TTFN :)

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

I skip a heartbeat



:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
Hot bukan?


Minggu ini terasa sangatlah lama. Cepatlah berjalan.

Malam tadi, mimpi begitu mengerikan. Apa sudah jadi dengan saya? Jangan jadi kenyataan! Jangan jadi kenyataan! Perasaan saya bercampur baur :/


Ya Bahasa Melayu saya teruk. Oleh itu saya akan sentiasa berblogging dalam Bahasa Melayu. Practice makes perfect. Latihan menjadikan anda sempurna. What the. SPM tinggal beberapa hari sahaja! (1 year and a few months). Begitu banyak lagi yang perlu dikejar. Tetapi, masih buat endah tak endah.

Oh Cikgu Zanariah pernah berkata, untuk memantapkan lagi karangan anda, just tulis sahaja apa yang pop di kepala anda tanpa menghiraukan grammar. Lama kelamaan anda akan menjadi hebat. Hebat seperti saya (fyza dilarang cemburu ya). LOL



p.s : campur baur itu apa? Saya tak tahu (imitating durrah). Bantai sahaja.



Sunday, August 2, 2009

Here we go again

Demi's new song from her new album. I like. haha



I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
Cause I break down
Every time you come around
(Uh Oh Uh Oh)

So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together
You think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again

You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't Be With Or Without You
(Uh Oh Uh Oh)

So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together
You think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go go again

And again and again and again
I threw all of your stuff away
And then I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart
(Uh Oh Uh Oh)
(Uh Oh Uh Oh)

So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should have known better
Then trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together
You think that by now I'd know
Cause here we go go

Here we go again
Here we go again
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
Cause here we go go go again
Again and again and again and again
Again and again and again and again

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Cursing

Someone must have cursed me. I curse you back filthy demon!

The reason I'm saying that is because, lately, most of everything I hold will suddenly slip and fall. So many things - handphone, ipod, books, pencil box, car keys and ada lagi.

Oh there was this one day when I bought a glass of drink then yeah, it fell. -_- That kakak was kind enough to give me the new one. Thank you !

There must be someone who's been so pathetically jealous of me. Pity you. (Perasan)(Joking)

Oh God, please protect me from these evil demons.

Bye bye, I need to pee so badly!

TTFN :)

I'm not sorry

I am avoiding you because you're avoiding me.

Pretty cool haa?

P.s : Joe Jonas is so H-O-T . LOL! and so gay.


TTFN :)